Gloomy Mary

So, apparently as of today, I am officially 4 weeks pregnant. My friend Jill is 30 weeks right now. It seems like just yesterday that I found out she was pregnant. I'm hoping that the time really does go quickly.

I am giving up and telling people. I've already inadvertently referred to it without thinking a few times at work, so there's just no way I can keep this from people.

However, I would rather tell my closest friends first, so I'm sending out the email today.

Jill - I totally don't mean to copy you but imitation is the sincerest form of flattery!

4 weeks pregnant. With Cohen, I didn't even know I was pregnant until I was nearly 8 weeks. I guess I knew this early with Lili, but I really have no memory of that pregnancy, I was so busy.

Symptoms - not many yet. Feeling tired, that's about it. I know the next month will likely be rough!

Oh yes - spaghetti absolutely turns my stomach. Which sucks. I love spaghetti.

All right, must go - maternity clothes shopping on E-Bay to do!

baby brain

it's happening already. i'm starting to forget where everything is. like, for example, the second pregnancy test that i bought. suddenly i'm freaked out that it was a false positive, and i really want to take the second test. however, i have searched high and low, to no avail.

luckily, the attack of baby brain is putting my fears at ease. non-pregnant, i rarely forget anything.

day 2. lots to go.

well, here is day 2 of knowing that i'm pregnant. the hardest part so far? not telling anyone other than family! i'm dying to tell people, at least my close friends. but i should probably wait until i've at least had it confirmed with the dr.

just started to realize how much we will be starting from scratch again. we got rid of everything, practically - the crib, bouncy chairs, 90% of the baby clothes, etc etc. i don't think i even own a single burping blanket anymore. well, maybe i'll get lucky and someone will throw me a babyshower! i'm trying to contain my immediate urge to go shop shop shop! i have been looking for maternity clothes already, as i just know that the ole' tummy is going to pop out any second. in fact, my pants have been fitting tighter this week. i'm totally not joking. i remember when i was pregnant with lili, people knew it after just a few months.

i'm feeling pretty good. yesterday was rough, i was really tired and nauseous. partially from no sleep and lots of freaking out. now that i've had some time to get used to the idea (actually, the idea is not the problem. it's the reality that threw me for a loop), i'm feeling much better today.

i'm really counting on time to go quickly. with the first baby, time is stupid-slow. the second baby - honestly, i don't remember being pregnant with Lili at all! hopefully the third will be the same-ish. not too fast - this is the last time i will be pregnant, so i'm hoping to enjoy it at least a little.


all right. let's see how long i can keep this secret. i'm guessing... not long at all. i'm terrible!

i've never been that great at tests, but....

took test at 3am-ish, didn't get back to sleep until 6am-ish. suddenly very panicky about the idea of a third child. going back and forth between joy and fear. result - nausea. guess it was bound to happen sooner or later!

due date - May 16.

i want to tell the whole world - but i also want to keep this quiet for awhile, at least until i sort out the worry from the big picture... we're having another baby!

results day

i have been feeling really PMS-y lately.

cranky, tired, bloated, irritable. and i've had a headache.

however - am going to buy a pregnancy test today. today is the earliest time that i would be able to take it. i should probably save my money and wait 4 days to see if aunt flo is coming for a visit. but i don't wanna wait :)

to be continued....