2 weeks old!

has it really only been 2 weeks? it feels like it's been forever. it has certainly been a crazy 2 weeks.

life definately didn't wait long to speed up after luci's birth. the first week or so was very slow and it really seemed like the days just ran into eachother... but the again, cohen was on a break from school, ian took some time off work, and i was barely even able to walk from the bedroom to the couch every day. week 2 however...

the first sign that i was feeling better was the walk. THE WALK. yes, it was big. i started to feel the baby blues coming on, and so i packed up luci, hooked me up to my i-pod, and we went for a very, very long walk in the rain. best thing in the world for me, even though i was walking stupid-slow, and had to stop often to clear my head. still, it was great to get out of the house and breath in some fresh air.

after that - life went on! our next outing was taking lili to spring figure skating lessons - and luci was an angel, sleeping from the time we left the house until we arrived back home 1.5 hours later. here's a cute picture of lili in her new skating dress, by the way:



our next outing was taking cohen to soccer - again, she slept through the entire thing. taking cohen to school and back - again, sleeps.

i'm relieved.

we've had visitors almost every day since she was born - and although i've loved having everyone, i will admit that i'm looking forward to a few days (ok, one day) with just me and the kids.

luci is sleeping alright - usually from about 11pm - 3:30am, and then she's usually up every hour or so after that. i'm getting used to it. the hardest part right now is that i don't have a good breastfeeding pillow, so i'm finding it really awkward and somewhat painful to nurse at night, trying to arrange the various pillows around me. nursing is going great - no problems. 3rd time is a charm, i guess.

luci is a pretty easy-going baby - out of neccesity, i guess! she loves to watch everyone, and only fusses if i take too long to respond to her hunger! she loves it when her big sister sings to her, and when her big brother holds her and makes funny faces. time with ian is especially precious - i love watching them together.

i'm feeling all right - still struggling with the blues. haven't had a chance to get out walking again since our first foray, but am hoping that i will be able to do more and more of it on ian's off days. the hardest part is trying to wade through the depression - i'm not actually depressed, you see. but i can feel the depression trying to seep in every morning. it's like being pulled under by the tide, or something. i can feel it happening, and i fight it like mad. i have no time for depression! i have 3 kids to love! 2 other kids to care for! oh wait, starting monday, 3 other kids to care for! i think once i have a chance to get out with adults every once in a while, i'll start feeling better. this friday should be a good start!

anyhoo. i'm loving being a mom of 3 (how odd does that sound). i keep saying in my head "you have two daughters and a son", and it makes me smile. the next year or 5 will be tough, but i know from experience that there will be so many amazing moments, we'll barely notice how hard it is.

plus, i can drink now so it's easier to deal with (heheh... and yes, i'm pumping!)

here are some recent pictures of little lou: