38 weeks, 5 days

had my dr's appointment today. i remember these frustrating appointments - wait for an hour, see the doc for 2 minutes. she measured my uterus (measuring 40 weeks), listened to the hb (150/min) and asked if i had any questions (nope). done.

alas, next week they will check my cervix again (which, with lili, actually helped get things started i think). i booked the appointment for wednesday (rather than Friday, my due date), because hope springs eternal! i'm hoping that i will either 1) not make it to Wednesday or 2) the appointment will get things moving down there.

ideally, i'm hoping for this friday! after friday i have 14 days off from babysitting the neighbors kids... so i'd really like to take advantage of that.

saw a news report the other day about "calgary moms". it was interesting... apparently many calgary moms are "trendy" moms - spending thousands on strollers, diaper bags... they showed one mom who routinely spent over $100 on each onesie for her daughter. and sitting in the dr's office today, i couldn't help noticing how "mom-ish" i felt compared to most of the women that were there. i'm sure they were 99% first time moms... most wearing 3-inch heels and maternity clothes that did NOT come from the bargain bin at Wal-Mart! perfect make-up, perfect hair, handbags that cost more than my car payments. ugh. i felt SO frumpy and out of touch in my brown cords, flip-flops and frayed hoodie. at least lili looked put-together!

i just can't understand how anyone can justify spending that kind of money on a stroller, or a onesie. seriously, i get the whole "it's my money" argument... but c'mon people, have some sort of social conscience! how about, buy a $50 onesie and donate $50 to a battered women's shelter.

yes, i'm somewhat hormonal. and frustrated! how many times do i have to hear "oh, it's your third, you'll be early"... grrr... and the worst thing is, i feel like NOTHING is happening! no changes. contractions off and on during the night- every night!

i'm so anxious to know that baby is ok... and in the back of my mind, i'm pretty anxious to know that i'm ok too. i have to schedule an u/s for 1 week after baby is born.

i'm also anxious to be able to, oh, you know, walk again without feeling like i'm 89 years old! i can't wait to start working out and swimming again.

hey, know what? (lili-ism). it's wednesday and my house is (relatively) clean! that rocks. as slow as i move these days, i still have plenty of time to get the housework done each day. i love it.

all right. i'm going to take a picture of the girls' room and post it tonight... because i realized i forgot to do that months ago!

then i'm going to do some squats while eating spicy food. ;)

m.