33 weeks,3 days

really starting to feel like i'm at the end of my rope! having trouble with the simplest things - walking up the front steps, for example. this low blood pressure is making me feel so weak. i hate it! i can't believe i have a month of work left, it is so exhausting.

i'm so excited about this baby, but i honestly am freaked out at how crappy i'm feeling! i'm not sleeping well - no more than an hour at a time - and i'm starting to have a lot of back pain. thank god the end is near! i wish i could be enjoying these last weeks of pregnancy, but life is too busy, and i hate feeling so unwell.

on the bright side - the baby's room is nearly done. i've started thinking about what i need to bring to the hospital, and hopefully next week i'll start packing.
the kids are getting excited, and it makes me laugh every day when they ask me "is the baby coming out today?". i'm looking forward to my time off, and trying really hard to remind myself that i will not have another opportuninty - ever - to have a year off with (some) pay!

ugh. baby is not moving as much as i would like. i don't know if i'm just too tired or busy to notice... (i did get into a disagreement with the resident at my last appointment. 'make sure you lie down for 2 hours each day and count movement'... she didn't understand why i laughed at her). i keep thinking that maybe i should go in for a non-stress test... and then she'll start moving more and i'll forget about it. i went for a non-stress test with lili, and felt so silly when everything was fine. i know that it's better safe than sorry, but i also know that our health care system is stretched to the max, and being in health care, i can't help being concerned about being part of the problem.

personally, i just think she's running out of kicking room.

so tired. must sleep.

oh - we have first and second name decided, just working on the third.

m.