1 week old!

it's so hard to believe! on the other hand, it seems like she's been here forever.

had her 1 week dr appointment today - she has already gained her weight back, and then some, weighing in at 9lbs 1 ounce. she's perfectly healthy. as for me - turns out that dr.a-hole is responsible for the numbness in my finger. i have to have it checked out again in 2 weeks, they are hopeful that the feeling will come back. i also made the big u/s appointment for my spleen - end of june. i can't believe i have to wait another month and a half! well - if it was serious, i'm sure they'd get me in earlier.

today was the first time i took all 3 kids out on my own. it took me 1.5 hours to get everyone ready, which included nursing luci as much as possible. i didn't end up having time for a shower (which is ok, had one last night) or a breakfast... managed to grab a granola bar on the way out the door, realizing as i did that we desperately need groceries. the drive went fine, but cohen and lili really acted up at the dr's office. all of a sudden, my well-behaved children won't listen to me at all. i actually had to yell at them - in public. lovely. all the while holding a naked, squirming, hungry luci. it was really frustrating, and i can't help feeling betrayed by cohen and lili! ian had even asked them to be extra-good today. i've only been on my feet for a few days now, and the trip to the doc really wore me out. i had planned on getting some groceries on the way home, but nixed that idea pretty quick. got home, sent cohen and lili out to play, and sat down to nurse luci. woke up 3 HOURS later at 2pm! the kids were starving... me too! luci, on the other hand, was sated - having had unrestricted access to my boob for 3 hours straight, haha. craziness.

in other news, definitely have the baby-blues. usually after dinner until about bedtime is rough for me. tonight i thought i was doing ok... until i woke up from another breastfeeding-induced nap. cohen and lili had gotten their paints out and it was everywhere - on lili's new shirt, my best towels, the table, the floor... so as i'm frantically trying to clean the table, lili spills an entire root beer on the floor (is there anything stickier than root beer? and since when do they help themselves to root beer??? they know they're allowed milk or water only!), luci starts to cry, and cohen starts throwing up.

and i start to cry! i hate it when ian is working the night shift. so what did i do? put cohen and lili to bed (no story, no teeth brushing, no water, no pjs even), cleaned up the worst of the paint, threw out my towels, all the while nursing luci. yes, i can now nurse on the move. too funny. then i called ian and cried for awhile. he told me i should talk to someone... i told him i don't need therapy, i need a housekeeper!

so we're actually considering hiring a housekeeper for the next 6 weeks or so, until i'm fully recovered and have gotten used to this craziness.

and this is with 3 kids... soon i will have J&B to watch... and in 2 weeks Julia, as well. thank god ian will be home for those days. and hopefully having other kids around will actually keep cohen and lili out of trouble!

oops, luci is awake, must run! updated pics to follow soon.

m.