damn those shots

poor luci had her 2 month immunizations this afternoon. i knew it would be a traumatic experience with her - cohen cried for a few minutes, lili didn't even cry at all (i would say she pretty much just glared at the nurse)... but luci, little luci is a crier.

sure enough, the little one screamed bloody murder for about 30 minutes. of course, i'm used to it (although my heart was breaking, i do know for a fact that they recover from this stuff) as she cries often. i thought the nurse was going to cry though.

other than sore little legs, she's doing great - she's in the 95th percentile for height at 75th for weight. not surprising - everyone was SO surprised at her weight when she was born, because she was such a skinny little thing. but the girl inherited her daddy's height, so far anyway.

i'm glad that is over though. i always dread it - more because of the 8 million questions (rate how capable you feel as a mother this week between 1 - 10... i would have said 9 but i had just finished yelling at cohen and lili in the van, so i went with 7.5). i get it - i do - and i even support what they are trying to prevent. but i really want to say "hey, i get it, but let's skip this part, we're fine, everything is fine, i'm not going to drown my kids! and my husband doesn't hit any of us cause if he did he'd find himself castrated!".

i don't think they'd go for it though. just like, that time that we took lili to the hospital when i was pregnant with luci and the nurse asked (once ian had left the room to get me some water) if there was any abuse in the home... i said "only when he's really drunk, which is only twice a week so it's really ok". she didn't find it funny for some reason. i only did it because she knew ian from work... lol. took me forever to convince her i was joking.

i guess that's like joking about carrying a bomb on board a plane these days.

well, the first immunization day is a marker for other reasons too - this was the night that Cohen first slept through the night. i remember waking up in the morning thinking he was dead! nope - just sleeping. after that he slept for 12 hours at night for a long time (i think until he was about 3, which is when we started experiencing some really fun bedtime problems). lili slept through the night from day 1 - 12 hours on the dot, and she hasn't strayed from that at all. knock on wood!

luci sleeps the least out of any baby i've had! she sleeps from about 10 or 11pm until 3:30ish, then does a power feed (5-10 minutes), sleeps again until 6, another feed and if i'm lucky she'll sleep again until around 9, but 50% of the time she's up and then doesn't sleep again until around 8:30. she dozes all day, but never longer than 30 minutes or so.

if she isn't sleeping through the night by 4 months, we'll probably start letting her cry. i know it seems like such an awful thing, but in my experience, if you do it right, it only takes about a week. my feeling is that most babies pick up on the anxiety and guilt of the mother, and this makes them cry more. i won't have much guilt nor anxiety - one thing i've learned, babies cry, and it doesn't hurt them. some of the nights we went through with cohen... good god. and he's perfectly fine now.

of course, this means that i have to get luci into the crib soon. she's still in the cradle next to our bed. in the last few weeks, she's actually spent all night in the cradle (i used to start here there but bring her into the bed with us after the 3:30 feeding). i've also been trying to put her down between 10pm-11pm while she's still awake, so she becomes used to putting herself to sleep.

here's hoping.

well, best go fold laundry while i have the chance!

m.