duck, duck, duck, duck, GOOSE!

not out of the woods yet. still feeling pretty tired and emotionally unstable. there are tiny rays of hope, however - after sleeping in this morning, and then lying around all afternoon - finally dragging my sorry-ass off the couch to go play an orchestra concert - i came home feeling recharged, and managed to get some housework done. i was even planning on taking the kids swimming - until Cohen spiked a fever, that is.

so i'm trying to set small goals. if i can get one small house-related chore completed every day, i'll be happy. we have this enormous, empty basement just begging for someone to come do something about it. and pictures that are crying out for walls. and vice versa!

not to mention - someone has to figure out the logistics of finding space for 3 permanent and 2 temporary children to sleep! i'd better start figuring it out soon.

christmas is fast approaching. i'm really working to not allow the feeling of panic/anxiety to take over. i LOVE the entire season... but pregnancy tends to bring out the anxiety in me (clearly), so i can't help freaking out a little. we usually spoil our kids fairly well on christmas - and pay the price all year long. this year, we have a very strict and very small budget, as we spend the next year playing catch up. next year will be much better. but i can't help feeling guilty. so, to make sure it's still the best time of the year, i'm hoping to have a very tradition-rich christmas. pregnancy nonwithstanding! we will bake. we will cut down our own tree. we will each decorate our own tree ornament, to add to our growing collection. we will shop at oliviers candy shop. we will watch all of the classic holiday cartoons. we will teach our kids christmas carols - yes, even the ones that *gasp* use the word "christmas". etc etc.

YAWN! how can i possibly be tired, i slept for 12 hours last night! this baby is sucking the life outta me LOL!

ok. not much else to report. 12 weeks and counting.