38 weeks, 1 day

Day 2 of mat leave was just as busy! i'm really quite anxious for things to settle down, at least a little... yesterday lili and i went shopping at toys'r'us - always a mistake! i got a travel system, which i'm moderately happy with - i don't love the handle of the infant carseat, but i'll live. the salesperson kept trying to upsell, and i felt bad for her - it must be frustrating dealing with non-first-time-moms, as i wasn't falling for her "spending $1000 on a stroller is normal" routine.

i also bought another booster seat for lili, as one of ours seems to have disappeared. plus a baby bathtub, a changetable pad (doesn't fit, have to take it back grrr), and a few other trinkets. all in all i spent far more than i wanted to, but i'm ok with it.

cohen had a friend over for a playdate afterwards, and it was challenging. some kids are just... unique, let's say. luckily, they mostly played outside, so i was able to spend the entire time cleaning! i'm obsessed! i cleaned our bedroom, the bathroom, the kitchen (again, let's be serious, it's an every day event), then went outside and decided that no way could i possibly put a brand-spanking-new carseat in our FILTHY van, so i cleaned out the van too. by 4pm, i was completely exhausted, and fell asleep until 5:30, at which point ian came home.

we dropped the kids off at my brothers house, and for our "date", ian and i drove to airdrie to pick up a tiny-love mobile that i found on kijiji.ca. we had this mobile with lili and she absolutely LOVED it - she would stare at it for hours. since we had gotten rid or hers, i have been resolutely scouring the net for a used one (i can't justify paying that much for a mobile.. twice in one lifetime). the one i finally found was in airdrie... so off we went. we got lost, of course (i ALWAYS get lost in airdrie, town of the 5 exits) and after much arguing, finally found the place. we decided to have dinner at the mcdonalds there - this is where ian and i reunited when he first moved to calgary. i remember him picking me up in his arms and swinging me around before kissing me when i first walked in to the mcdonalds, almost 12 years ago... ahhh, the days of romance!

afterwards, we drove home, watched jeopardy, law and order and family guy while putting together the stroller (no blood this time, we must be getting good at it), and then i went to bed. part of me wishes we'd gone out - saw a movie or something - but honestly, i was so tired already! oh well.

today is busy too... in a few hours, my cousin and his family are coming for breakfast, so i have to go pick up the kids... i'm skipping ballet this morning (seriously, i can only do so much). then i'm going for my birthday pedicure at 1pm, and probably will do a little shopping afterwards. my brother is dropping julia off for a sleepover at dinner time, and then i'm hosting the alberta winds board meeting here at 6:30.

tomorrow, i swear, i am doing nothing but playing with my kids and reading a book. sheesh.

i'm not sure if it has really hit me yet that i have a year "off". i don't know. i'm so focussed on this baby, it's hard to think of anything else. it's been a LONG time since i had a baby, so i'm really not sure what to expect in terms of my emotions.

we'll see. i'm definitely not feeling like labour is approaching - feels like it could still be a month away - god forbid! i definitely don't fall asleep at night thinking "this could be the night" or anything. less than 2 weeks until my due date... and yet it feels like i still have months to wait. sigh.